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Title: Where You Are Summary: Scully, in her pregnant state, tries to find Mulder before she has the baby.
November 22, 2000 It has been about a month since Mulder disappeared and I found out that I am pregnant. My life has completely been turned upside-down. I miss Mulder so much. My life is just not the same without him. I have made it my quest to find him, I need him to go on. I can't live without him. I wake up every morning and wonder where he is and what they are doing to him. The nightmares have not subsided, if fact they have gotten worse than ever. I can hardly sleep as it is and them when I do start to dose off, they come. I can see him. He is in so much pain and I cannot do anything to stop it. I wake up in a cold sweat each morning. I will find him, it is only a matter of time, but I am scared. What if I fail? What if I can't save him after all of the times that he has saved me? What if I never see him again? I need him, I never told him that. I brushed him off so many times. How could he even stand to be by me, the "Ice Queen." I just hope that he knew, that he knows how I feel about him. I shower and get ready for work, it is so routine by now. I have my breakfast and then drive to work. On my way to the door of the building I run into Doggett. John Doggett, my new partner... Scratch that, my temporary partner. "Good morning Agent Scully," he says to me. "Morning Agent Doggett," I reply back. All routine. As we walk through the halls of the J. Edgar Hoover Building I can hear the whispers of the people surrounding us. Doggett looks uncomfortable, I ignore them. He'll get used to it, I eventually did. The whispers continue all the way down to the basement, all the way to Mulder's office. We both go to our respective desks, I sit at Mulder's and Doggett sits at his own, I did promise him that he would get a desk after all. I'm thinking of adding our names on the door too. As I look down at my desk I see that there is a note from Skinner sitting there. Come see me in my office ASAP! --Skinner I get up and show the note to Doggett and proceed upstairs to the AD's office with Doggett close at my heels. When we get there his secretary waves us right in. As we walk through the door, not only do we see Skinner, but also the Lone Gunman are all there. "We've got something," Skinner says. "What is it?" I ask "We might have come up with the next place that those UFOs are headed," Byers said. "We didn't find him last time that we followed that plan." I say, then I remember what Gibson Praise said to me out in the desert. Gibson said that Mulder was close, that he could hear him calling. I believe him, I could feel it too. If Doggett hadn't have come with that damn helicopter I would have kept looking all night. All eyes were on me. "Let's see what you've got." Said Doggett, completely taking me by surprise. He must have figured out that is how we found Gibson at the same time as him. He just used the conventional method to find him while Skinner and I used the Mulder-method. Whatever works. Skinner and the Lone Gunman showed us the latest pictures of where the UFOs were headed and where they had been spotted the most times in recent history. As it turns out there had been many sightings over and around Iowa and Illinois and they were moving north. The latest sightings had been over a rural area near a park with many trees called Scott County Park. Skinner had already arranged for plane tickets, their flight left in two hours. "This is quite a leap you're taking here," Doggett said. "He'd do the same for me," I replied back.
Quad City Airport After getting off of the plane Doggett and I rented the standard Ford Taurus that has been rented out to FBI agents since the beginning of time. I had Doggett pick out the motel for us this time around. Actually it was quite nice. The Radison right beside the river. We immediately went out to the park to investigate. It was about 5:00pm when we finally made it there. It was a thickly wooded area with many farms surrounding it. The park officials had been scared out of their minds for the past couple of nights and they didn't know what was happening or what would happen. There were a lot of people there though they were not allowed into the park. They all wanted to see the alien ship. I scanned the sky, seeing nothing but the moon and stars. I decided that it would be a good idea to walk through the forest to see if I could find him. I had that feeling again, the feeling that I was close. I gathered my flashlight and coat, it was freezing outside, and got out of the car. "I think he is close," I told Doggett. "How can you be sure?" he asked. "I don't know how, I just feel it. I'm taking a leap," I replied. We walked up to the police officer in charge and flashed open our badges. "Hello, I'm Agent Scully and this is my partner Agent Doggett. We are here to investigate the sightings that have happened the past couple of days," I recited. "I'm happy to have you here, agents. I am Officer Fischer and I have been plagued with phone calls the past couple of days with people telling me that there are aliens flying over their homes and over this park. I just don't know what to do. We have looked around the park numerous times but we can't seem to find anything. A couple of my officers have however been found knocked out in certain areas of the park, but when we find them and ask them what happened they have no memory, just a bad headache." I looked at Doggett and then said thank you to the officer and told him that we would like to look over the park ourselves to make sure that no rock has been left unturned. We left him then headed into the park to investigate. I knew something was up with officers being knocked off their feet and having no memory of it. It had happened to me once before. Before Mulder had been abducted he had found me on the ground. I know I'm getting close. I can feel it getting stronger. We near the forest and I decide that we should split up so that we can cover more ground in less time. I decide to skim through the forest, to weave in and out so that I can cover the whole thing myself. I won't feel like I did a good enough job unless I make sure that everything has been covered. I feel him now, I feel his presence so near to me. I walk closer and closer and my head begins to throb. I can hear voices, voices that I don't know. I'm not sure what language but I understand what they are saying. They are saying that they know I am near and they have to move before I get to Mulder. I know I have to hurry but I feel almost like I can't move, almost frozen there. Finally I am able to move and I break toward the noise that is in my head. It gets louder and louder but I can't see anything anywhere, I just feel. I slow to a walk, realizing that no matter how fast I run, I'm not going to be able to find something. I take another step and something stops me. Then everything goes black.
Genesis West Hospital I wake to find Skinner at my side and Doggett in the chair across the room. "What's wrong, where am I?!! Mulder!! Where is he?" is all I manage, then I remember last night. I fall back into my med and resist the urge to cry as Skinner rushes over with concern registered on his face. "Scully, you are alright. Agent Doggett found you last night unconscious in the forest," Skinner informed me. "We don't know how this happened and we were hoping that you would have some recollection of last night to fill us in," he continued. "I, I don't remember." And then it hit me, "Is my b..." I started then stopped remembering that Agent Doggett is in the room. "What?" Doggett said questioning me. "Nothing," I replied. "No, you were asking a question. What was it?" he inquired. "Nothing, its none of your business." I feel awful for putting him off like that but I don't want him to know the truth yet. I don't want him to think that I am incapable of doing work because of my pregnancy. I don't fully trust him yet either, he isn't Mulder. "Sure, fine, whatever," he replied not hiding his anger very well. "I just wish that you would tell me whatever it is. I know that you are hiding something from me and I would just like to know what it is." "I will tell you, the time is not right yet. When the time is right I will tell you." I reply. He does have a point. Doggett is a good guy at heart I hope. I will tell him as soon as he needs to know.
I get released form the hospital with nothing more than a few scrapes and bruises, nothing bad and most importantly my baby is fine. Skinner is worried though. I have hardly been on any cases since I found out that I am pregnant but I have ended up in the hospital for reasons other that the baby a lot so far. He wants me to tell Doggett about the pregnancy and stick to in office work. I can't do that. It isn't fair to Mulder. I have got to find him and I don't think that Doggett can do it by himself. Skinner has informed me that if anything else should happen to me along the way he will not let me do any out of office work. I know that he is concerned about the baby and me too but I am a big girl and I can take care of myself. Even when I feel so alone.
Scully's Home When I finally get home I am so tired and I feel like it is time to wash off all of the hospital smell and feel off of myself. I decide that now is the time for a bath. I start to run the water and add in the soap for bubbles. I bring in the radio and turn it on to the light music station. Soon I am undressed and in the tub. As I sit there I begin to relax. I start to feel better finally. Then the song came on. It was one of those songs that you don't know why, it just touches you in a way. You hear the words, really hear the words and understand each one of them. It is a powerful song that moves your very soul. I hear a song that fits that description tonight. (Jessica) Oh, mmm, mmm Watchin over me Where you are When I can be (Nick) And I can see your face (J) Oh, I see your star (J) Then I will be free (N) Now baby there were times when selfishly Where you are I cried. I cried for a very long time. With crying came a feeling of empowerment. Now I had my tears out. It was time to do something about it. I would find him, now I had no doubt.
Six Months Later Over the past months a lot has happened. I have told Doggett about my pregnancy, I had to seeing as how I am showing now. It is shocking how big someone as small as me can get when pregnant. I am due in a month. Also I haven't given up on my search for Mulder. I have thought about him so many times since he has been gone. A thousand times a day. I have gotten close many times, I can feel it every time. My thoughts of Mulder are suddenly interrupted by the ring of my cell phone. "Scully." "Scully, it's AD Skinner. We found him." "Where!? Where is he? Is he alright? When can I go see him?" I asked frantically. "He's at the hospital. He was found this early this morning at the hospital, no one knows how he got there. He just sort of appeared. The doctors say that he is out of it right now. Incoherent. They say that he keeps calling for you though." "I'll be right there." During the conversation I was already on my way down to the car. I don't think I have ever made such good time to the hospital but it felt like an eternity. I ran in flashing my badge and threatening death to anyone who dare question my presence. I scared a nurse who was twice my size to death when asking her which room Mulder was in. once she was finally able to spit it out I charged down the hallway to his room. I wonder if this is how Mulder was when I was in the hospital. When I finally reached his room I paused. I was scared to enter, scared of what I might find out about him. I gathered myself and walked in. was relieved to find him there, in one piece, sleeping soundly. I couldn't help it, I burst into tears. I had to touch him, I had to feel that he was real. I came closer to the bed and looked at him, he was beautiful. Carefully I reached down and took his hand in mine. Relief washed over me. I sat there for hours, he didn't wake. Well, not completely. He stirred every now and then and he also mumbled in his sleep but all I could make out was an occasional "stop!" or "Scully!" Soon I fell asleep at his side. It had been a long day. I awoke to a nose full of Mulder-smell and someone stroking my head. I looked up and there he was, awake and smiling at me. "Hi," he said to me. "Hi," I managed to say back. My eyes filled with tears, there was so much I needed to say to him, now was not the time or place but it would have to do. "I missed you so much, Mulder." "I missed you too, Scully." "There are some things that I need to tell you about. Things that you missed while you were gone and things I should have told you when you were here." "What is it, Scully?" I really had to work up my courage to say it. These things that I had to tell him were going to be the hardest things I have ever had to tell him in the time that we have known each other. I had to tell him that I love him and that I was pregnant with his baby. I also had to explain how I could be pregnant with his baby if we have never had made love before. "Mulder..." "Yes Scully?" "Mulder, I, I just wanted to tell you..." God, this was so much easier in all of my dreams "Well, I need to tell you that..." "What is it Scully?" "I love you Mulder, I am in love with you Mulder." "Scu.." "No wait, I'm not finished yet Mulder. Mulder... Mulder, I'm pregnant." I stood to emphasize the point. Mulder's mouth dropped, he just looked shocked. Then a small flash of anger passed through his eyes, but it had been pushed away as quickly as it had come. Why was he mad? "Mulder, what's wrong?" "Nothing Scully, this is the best news that I have ever heard. You get to be a mother. Who is the father?" I could hear the hurt in his voice. "You are." Mulder's face filled with shock again. "But how?" "It's an X-File, Mulder. I'm not sure how this baby got into me but I had the DNA tested and it's yours and mine. We're having a baby." "God, Scully, this is the most amazing thing I have ever heard. When are you due?" "A month. Are you sure you are okay with this Mulder?" "Of course Scully, this is my dream." With that I began to cry. Mulder stroked my hair and whispered to me, "We're going to start a family Scully, I love you so much, You and me and the baby are going to be happy. I have so much to tell you too. I have the "truth." They told me Scully, they told me everything. We're going to be okay. They are going to protect us." I fell asleep at his side once more. I knew everything would be fine.
Today "Mulder!!!!! Oh God!!! It HURTS!!!!" "Breathe with me, Scully. Ouch, you're hurting my hand. Come on Scully you are doing such a good job. Any minute now Scully." "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!" One final scream and there the baby was. She was beautiful. "Mr. and Mrs. Mulder, what will you be naming your beautiful daughter?" the doctor asked. "Maureen Adele Mulder," I (newly Mrs. Dana Mulder) replied after only a second of thought. "Perfect," said my husband as he bent down to kiss his wife and new baby daughter. End!!!!!!
I'd like to say thank you to anyone who has read this. I really appreciate it. If anyone wants to send me comments I would love to receive them. I'm new at this after all so I need all the help I can get. If anyone thinks that I should write a sequel I might be willing to do that too. Mulder: I'm the key figure in an on-going government charade, the plot to conceal the truth about the existence of extraterrestrials. It's a global conspiracy, actually, with key players in the highest levels of power, that reaches down into the lives of every man, woman, and child on this planet. (he laughs) So, of course, no one believes me. I'm an annoyance to my superiors, a joke to my peers. They call me Spooky. Spooky Mulder, whose sister was abducted by aliens when he was just a kid and who now chases after little green men with a badge and a gun, shouting to the heavens or to anyone who will listen that the fix is in, that the sky is falling and when it hits it's gonna be the shit-storm of all time.
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