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Title: Existence Summary: I heard Agent Reyes call my name and say that Agent Scully needed to go to the hospital. Panic raced through my mind...where was the baby? Why didn't she mention the baby? I arrived when the cars were pulling away. I didn't know what was going on....how all those people knew about this place or why they were there. I heard Agent Reyes call my name and say that Agent Scully needed to go to the hospital. Panic raced through my mind...where was the baby? Why didn't she mention the baby? I ran into the house and saw Scully holding a bundle in her arms. I felt my heart race at the sight. She looked beautiful, tired and sweaty, but she looked beautiful holding that baby. She looked up and saw me standing there. She smiled and spoke to me. "Mulder, c'mere....I'd like you to meet someone." I smiled and walked slowly toward my new family. I couldn't believe what was happening. I mean, I knew what was about to happen. I've known that Scully was pregnant for quite awhile, even took her to doctor appointments and Lamaze classes. I prepared myself for the new arrival, but in everyone's eyes I was not admitting that it was true. It was hard to believe that Scully was pregnant, but in my heart I wanted the baby, if not for myself, then for her. When I finally was able to move my legs and get close enough to see the baby, something inside me melted. It was gorgeous. "Mulder, I'd like you to meet your son." "A son?" "He perfect, Mulder....He has your nose" "God, let's hope not." "He's beautiful." "Yes. He is." "Here, hold him. He needs to meet his Daddy." I smile at her, and she smiles back. She looks tired. I can faintly hear the ambulance sirens in the background. I wonder how they got there so quick. I hope she can rest in the hospital, but if I told her that she would remind me that the nurses would wake her up every two hours in her cynical voice. Agent Reyes gets her and Scully's things prepared, while Scully prepares herself for the ambulance ride. The paramedics move Scully into the ambulance and take the baby from me as I climb in to ride with Scully. They hand the baby to her for the ride, and she grabs my hand to hold close to her and the baby. I look down at my new family and see what I'd never thought I'd see again. Two people who love me, really love me. I keep referring to them as my new family. It's such a weird concept to me because I've had no real family for such a long time. Since before Sam was taken. Now I have Scully and a son. Well I've had Scully for a long time, but it's been different in the last year or so. She's so much more to me than just my family....she's my existence. We arrive at the hospital and we are greeted by Skinner and Doggett. Agent Reyes must have called them on the way here. She followed the ambulance and met Skinner and Doggett at the door. The three of them watched as Scully was wheeled into an exam room. She and our son checked out fine and are released a few hours later. I drive her home in Skinner's car. He got a ride from Doggett. I carried what little she had up to her apartment while she carefully swaddled the baby to her chest. I think she is still scared that she will lose him. Hell, so am I. We won't though.....I will make sure of it. It's late and I am anticipating spending a lonely night on my couch in my lonely apartment. She asks me to help her in the baby's bedroom, so I am hopeful that I am wrong in my assumption. I follow her into the room and am stunned at all of the new things I see around the room. It must all be from the baby shower that her mother held for her. Well at least now she can get rid of the pink toys. Knowing my Scully she will give them to her mom to give to the church toy drive. We are very quiet as she lays the baby in his bassinet. I look down at him and see that he is already fast asleep in his new home. We watch the baby sleep for what seems like hours, but in reality it is only a few minutes. Scully sighs out of exhaustion. Scully excuses herself to go change into her pajamas. When she returns, she finds me in the same place as she left me, watching our son. I pull her into my arms and hold her tightly. "I wish I could have seen it." "I know." "I'll see the next one." I said this partially joking, but she looked up at me with such seriousness in her eyes, I knew what she was going to say next. "Yes, you will." I smile at this and look into her eyes, before I can't help myself any longer and pull her back into my arms. "Do you mean it?" "Of course I do Mulder." "Thank you." I was thanking her for all she gave me lately.... my health, that wonderful smile when I woke up in the hospital, the baby, and most of all her love. "Thank you, Mulder." I hear her say this and I think the only possible thing she could have to thank me for is helping her have her baby.....our baby. "Mulder....wanna keep me company tonight?" "Are you sure?" "Well the only thing we will be doing tonight is sleeping." "Of course, I'll stay..but only if I get to hold you tonight." "Of course." In between the middle of the night feedings and diaper changes, I managed to get a sleeping Scully in my arms for a good couple of hours, which is more than I've had for weeks. I just love holding her. The next morning, I decide some clean clothes are in order so I leave my cozy family in Scully's huge bed and drive to my place. I feed the few remaining fish that I have and grab a quick shower, wanting to spend as little time as possible away from my family. I throw on some clean clothes and hurry back home to Scully. She is my home now. I walk up to the door and use my key to get in. Using my key was getting very familiar these days. I walk to the back of the apartment, to the bedroom and see The Lone Gunman standing in our bedroom. Our. They hurry out of the room, Frohike muttering to Scully to get some rest. We briefly talk about how I managed to get to Scully in time to save her and the baby, then they leave the nicely wrapped presents and leave. I slowly walk into the bedroom and see Scully holding our little bundle in her arms. She looks up and greets me with a huge smile. "How's everybody doing?" "We're doing just fine." She says this as she walks across the room to me, bringing the baby to me and placing him in my arms. He fusses a little at the loss of her scent but quiets down quickly. "What are you going to call him?" "William....after your father." I smile at her then and see tears forming in her eyes. We stand there and she begins to question why the replacements didn't take William from us. That 'from us" makes a big difference in my heart. I tell her that maybe he isn't what they thought he was. I also tell her he is no less a miracle in our eyes. I then start saying something about the truths we need to face up to, but I really have no idea what I'm saying because I really just want to kiss her. "Which is what?" she asks, questioning the truths. After she asks I lean in slowly and press my lips to hers, showing her what truths I mean. The truths about how thankful I am to her and how much I love her and William. She reaches out to hold my arms, never once breaking the kiss. The baby tucked lovingly between our hearts. In this moment, with her and the baby so close, I realize again that I am home. William is my home. Scully is my home. Together they are my Existence. THE END
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